Motivation

I have definitely talked about this before but I lack self motivation.  I have done Weight Watchers in the past and was successful in the short amount of time I did it.  I lost weight every week except one because I KNEW that I was going to have someone weigh me in and see my weight.  The only reason that I stopped going to WW was because I hated converting calories into points and knew it was not something I was willing to do long term.  I thought I would do fine just counting calories...which has also worked short term but without the motivation to workout has not done enough to get the results I need to keep pushing myself.

My weight is effecting my life...in a bad way.  I NEED TO CHANGE.  I need to make better choices and be a better role model to my little girls.  I still wait for the day that my oldest realizes that I am overweight and unhealthy (if she hasn't already).  It will be such a sad day for me because it is a choice that I am making.  No medical condition is causing me to be gain weight or be sedentary...it is my choosing.
I decided to join a group of ladies in a healthiness challenge thinking it would motivate me to get my rear in gear.  Unfortunately, I have done the bare minimum in order to not hurt my team point-wise.  I have not lost any weight because I am not pushing myself with my workouts and not restricting my calories enough.  Today starts the last week of the 4-week challenge and I am going to try to push myself as hard as possible to lose some weight and feel like I deserve the points I have gotten.

I know that this post is venting but this is my blog and I am allowed! :) I need to get some concrete goals set for myself and determine what I am going to do to achieve them.  I keep trying to remind myself of the following...

If I can just remember this everyday that I don't feel like working out or eating right then maybe, just maybe I can conquer my weight.