ONEderland

I VOW,

SWEAR,

COMMIT,

PROMISE

to myself and you that I will NEVER,

EVER leave the land of one hundreds again (not even during pregnancy).

After my last post where I revealed my weight (kinda), I thought about deleting it several times and was so hesitant before clicking the button "PUBLISH POST".  I was not sure that I was ready to publicly admit how high I have let my weight get.  I decided that it was good to have that admitted and realize that I am ready to accept where I m right now and love myself despite it.  I am going to make myself a priority in my life and work towards being the person on the outside that I am on the inside.

My goal as of TODAY, is to lose 6 more pounds so that I am in the 180s again.  That is my first step and then I will work on from there.  I currently have 17 pounds pregnancy weight left to lose.  I had myself convinced that this pregnancy weight would come off like after my first pregnancy.  After my first pregnancy, I went to my 6 week post-partum appointment weighing less than I had pre-pregnancy.  NOT THIS TIME!!!  Oh well, I will just have to work at it.  And work at it, I WILL!!!

Since starting this blog, I have lost 9 pounds.  I started this blog at my highest weight EVER (non-pregnancy).  I have not been good at recording my weigh-ins but will be doing so starting NOW. 

I found this questionnaire on a fellow weight loss blogger's blog.  I thought that it would be a good time to reflect and share my reasons with all of you. 

Why do you want to get in shape?
It is proven that abdominal fat is totally unhealthy and that is where I carry the majority of my weight.  It scares me!  I am a walking time bomb.  I have seen what being overweight can do to your body over time and want to lose weight and get in shape so that my body is strong.  I want to be an active mom and play with my kids at the park instead of sit on the bench and watch them.
 
Do you have an ultimate goal?
I want to be in the "normal" range of weight for my height.  That means that I need to weigh somewhere between 118-155 pounds.  Since I have been overweight before getting pregnancy with my first child, I have no idea what weight I will feel best at.  I am simply trying to fall somewhere in that range and feel really good.  I also want to be physically fit and have a consistent workout routine.

Do you have short term goals?
Well, I am gonna set goals along the way.  My first goal is to get out of the 190's (I cannot believe I actually just put my weight out there)...I will be celebrating with rewards for every 10 pounds I lose.  I am also gonna work on making certain things become habits along the way.

Do you have a mentor, or someone that inspires you?
I cannot say that there is one person in particular.  I am inspired every Tuesday night when I watch the Biggest Loser.  The contestants overcome so much and drastically change their lives.  I have also found lots of inspiration from others you are/have documented their struggles and successes (see my motivation blogs on the right side).

Who would you like to inspire to make their own transformation?
Honestly it never really occurred to me that I would be inspiration for others.  I am just trying to make it day to day in my own journey.  I felt overwhelmed with joy when a friend told me that her mom, her and her sister had started their own weight loss blog because they had been inspired by me.  It makes me feel humbled and more dedicated to continue working towards my goals.  I hope that I can continue to inspire people to not just lose weight but to get into shape and eat healthy.

What has stopped you in the past from making the right choices?
ME...my lack of ability to stick it.  I try to change everything at once and then get overwhelmed and quit.  I also am an emotional eater (mainly when I am bored).  I need to get over my addiction to food and learn to "eat to live" NOT "live to eat".

Why are you going to make it this time?
I am embracing this as a lifestyle change instead of a diet.  I want to learn to eat healthy on a daily basis and to be more active.  I am also hoping that by putting myself out there in the blog, that it will keep me accountable and therefore, I will make better choices.

All or Nothin'

I tend to have a all or nothing attention sometimes. This attitude leads me to start off strong...wanting to totally change the way I eat overnight and exercise everyday. Well, it goes okay for awhile but minor setbacks make me throw in the towel. Hence, I am no longer setting weekly goals. I will now be taking a slower pace when it comes to changing the rest of my life. I want to incorporate exercise into my daily life FOREVER (not just until I lose the weight) and I want to make better eating a lifestyle change NOT a diet.

So I will be focusing on exercise for the next 28 days...therefore, forming a habit. Once again my all or nothing attitude gets in the way. I know that I am NOT going be running everyday or working out for 1-2 hours daily. My goal is to do exercise everyday...walking a mile, doing a workout video....something AT LEAST 3 times a week. I am not going to be overkill and say 5 or 6 says a week because that is setting myself up to fail. By saying 3 times a week, I know I can achieve this and anything more than 3 days is great!

Today's exercise...1 mile walked! (more on this later) One down, two to go for the week!

Motivation

Let me be completely honest for a minute....

I LACK MOTIVATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As much as I wish that this was not true, it is! I get really excited about making a change and do really good for a little bit and then just slowly lose the motivation to keep on going. Hence, the lack of blog posts lately...not for lack of time but because I did not want to admit that I was no longer working toward my weight loss/getting fit goals. Well, I am gonna start this process AGAIN and am trying to find ways to stay motivated.

While reading my sisters blog, I realized that I am jealous of the community and friends that she has that are fellow runners. This got me thinking that there must be a community of fellow people trying to gain control of their weight and get fit. So I did a google search for "weight loss blogs" and found some that really excited me. I am looking forward to reading them and getting ideas and advice for what they have found works for them. I hope that reading and following some of these blogs will help me stay on track for a longer period of time.

One thing that I noticed about these blogs (most of them at least), is that they have blog entries almost everyday. I know that I don't have many followers (which is fine with me) but like I said in the beginning this blog is for ME. So I am gonna start blogging my successes, failures, frustrations, and such that I go through several times per week. (sorry if it is boring to you but you don't have to read them all)

I realized that my April goals of fitting into my wedding ring and capris did not happen. Although I really was trying to avoid buying any clothes while I am trying to lose weight, I decided that tomorrow I am headed to find a cute fitting pair of capris or shorts that I can feel good in. Feeling fat and ugly is not the motivation that I need.

I have also been thinking about the weekly goals that I have been setting. Well they are now a think of the past. Instead of having three or more goals that I am working on at one time...I am gonna start of by forming habits instead. I will be getting into what habit(s) I will be focusing on in later posts this week. Stay tuned!

A new month

My vacation was GREAT!!!

My weight loss...not so much!!!

Instead of losing 2 pounds, unfortunately I gained 2 pounds. I am okay with it. I am back home and am ready to get back to work and into my routine. I am actually excited to back home and be able to workout and eat home cooking instead of eating out. I have my meals planned for the week and am headed to the grocery store later today. I have my workouts for the week planned as well. I am hoping to be back to the weight I was before leaving on vacation when I weigh in on Wednesday. I don't really think it is necessary to review the goals since I didn't stick to them. But I will go ahead and outline my goals for this week.

Goal #1 ~ 3 meals, 2 snacks, 1 treat per day

Goal #2 ~ Workout 5 times this week

Goal #3 ~ HYDRATE...drink at least 72 ounces of water/day

I am still trying to get back into my wedding ring. I am really hoping that I can get it on by the end of the month. I also an really close to fitting into my capris. With it getting hotter here, I really need to get into them. I currently have ONE pair of pants that fit but I refuse to buy any more clothes this size. I really hope to be into the capris by the end of the month as well. So, my April goals are into fit in my wedding ring and capris.